Going forward in my life I have decided to pursue my dreams. The desires of my heart that have always been there. I have attempted this before, but let reason and the reasoning of others slow down my process. I cannot and will not blame them because A. placing blame serves no purpose, B. I know they meant well, and C. at the end of the day the decision was mine alone to make.
My first attempt to pursue my dreams was a great first step, but a partial one. I felt alive and excited, and afraid in my pursuit. I didn't care about the fear until outer voices all said nay and gave me so many valid reasons to just stay on the path I was on. So I pressed paused on what was truly in my heart and walked the well known road of being an employee, and a student, and an everyday human being. Not that those things are bad, it just was not what I had an overwhelming desire for. I attained a degree, and was even blessed to get a paid internship in the field I believed I wanted to work in at the time.
After a little over a year of working in the field, continuing to pursue a higher level of education, as well as working another job, I began to see that the line of work I was gaining more knowledge for was not at all where I wanted to be. So I quit school, and left one job. The other job I held on to and just tried to figure out who I was and what I wanted. Self work got pushed to the side, and the only work I was doing was that of an employee. I fell into a depression and just kinda wandered and worked, and wandered, and worked.
The depression forced me to analyze myself, what I was doing, and what it was that I really wanted. As I wrote and thought, the more I saw what it was that I wanted. I wanted to follow my dreams. I had suppressed my true desires. But that's the great thing about having a dream. It will always show up or come back to you and I am so glad that it has.
I hope that you are pursuing your dreams no matter what they are, and regardless of who has anything to say about it. The desires of your heart are yours for a reason, but do not let reasoning or the reasoning of others take you away from them. Nay sayers will say nay, but I am hoping you follow what your heart has to say.